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Clean Heart

I don’t know why praying is hard for me, it just doesn’t come naturally. I feel awkward. But I often find songs that touch me, and I use them as my prayers. One of my favorite songs since I can remember, I use over and over again. Especially recently, last night.

Create in Me a Clean Heart
Oh, God
And renew a right spirit
Within me.
Create in me a clean heart
Oh, God
And renew a right spirit
Within me.

Cast me not away
from thy presence
Oh, Lord
And take not thy Holy Spirit
From me
Restore unto me
The joy of thy Salvation
And renew a right spirit
Within me

I felt so heavy last night. I took a shower, and sang, like someone had pressed the repeat button on me. I cried. I’m exhausted this morning.

Today is Ash Wednesday. I will be attending service. The senior choir sings today (that means me). We’re singing a Bach piece. Ash Wednesday marks the beginning of Lent. Do you give things up for Lent? One year I gave up soda, and then didn’t drink it again for years. I think, even though I really need it today, I will give up soda again. I’m also going to give up yelling at my DS1, it doesn’t work anyways, but happens so often, and I always regret it later. These two things, especially these two things together will be hard.

Create in Me a Clean Heart.

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4 responses »

  1. You are the second blogger I’ve seen recently who has trouble with prayers and uses song. I think that’s beautiful!

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  2. Here is a wonderful song for the Help meet. i love it
    it is by sanctus real

    “Lead Me”

    I look around and see my wonderful life
    Almost perfect from the outside
    In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
    Always smiling
    But on the inside, I can hear her saying…

    “Lead me with strong hands
    Stand up when I can’t
    Don’t leave me hungry for love
    Chasing dreams, what about us?

    Show me you’re willing to fight
    That I’m still the love of your life
    I know we call this our home
    But I still feel alone”

    I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
    They’re just children from the outside
    I’m working hard, I tell myself they’ll be fine
    They’re in independent
    But on the inside, I can hear them saying…

    “Lead me with strong hands
    Stand up when I can’t
    Don’t leave me hungry for love
    Chasing dreams, but what about us?

    Show me you’re willing to fight
    That I’m still the love of your life
    I know we call this our home
    But I still feel alone”

    So Father, give me the strength
    To be everything I’m called to be
    Oh, Father, show me the way
    To lead them
    Won’t You lead me?

    To lead them with strong hands
    To stand up when they can’t
    Don’t want to leave them hungry for love,
    Chasing things that I could give up

    I’ll show them I’m willing to fight
    And give them the best of my life
    So we can call this our home
    Lead me, ’cause I can’t do this alone

    Father, lead me, ’cause I can’t do this alone

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